Mare

So I grew up in a Christian home. I have spent most of my life in the hospital. When I found out I had cancer it flipped my world upside down. I got to the point where I was at the lowest of my low. I gave up hope. I got diagnosed with depression, severe OCD, and anxiety. I began to doubt God and wonder if He was really there. Through all the chemo and all the pain I wondered if He really loved me. Questions and doubts filled my head constantly. One day one of my Young Life leaders came in to visit me and she told me that He loved me. We began talking and she mentioned Romans 5:8 and we talked about how He loved me even at my darkest moment and that He died for me just so He could know me. Then I began to ask well if He really loved me then why? Why was this happening to me? She told me that God had a plan and something good was gonna come out of this. She read me Jeremiah 29:11 and so every morning that would be my go to verse. I started to pray and just gave my situation to God. Through all the anxiety and pain I cried out, A few months later I went in for my final treatment and became cancer free! About a year later I got diagnosed with an eating disorder called anorexia. I thought that it defined me. But the truth is I let it define me. There again was God who heard my cry and was with me every step of the way. I still battle depression, I still battle with OCD and I still battle with anorexia but God showed me that my disorders don’t define me! He defines me! I am His child! He calls me beautiful! He makes me worthy! He died to know you!